cool or not to be cool...

am i cool?some ppl said dat i am cool..dunno ler..but for me the 'the cool matter' really killing me..bcoz smtimes ppl take advantage with my attitude..they thought dat i can really accept for what hapen just bcoz im cool person..im sick n tired with this kind of ppl..well.some of them were my buddies..so,its still kind of typical matter to solve it...i can expect what are the consequences gona be..kekadang tu rasa nak lempang jek everybodi sekeliling...not all d time i can be cool..or not so cool..maybe i admit my mistake..everibodi seem bleh 'pijak kepala'when they think im cool..ye laa..diorg mesti ckp punye.."aler..belo tu mesti cool punye...dia mesti xkisah punye...xdehal.."this dialog always come out from their mouth..sometimes i think i just want to be lonely..no one can get involve wit my own circle..fuck that AKON song!i really need to be lonely..since now i'd face a hard time,everybody seem try to keep a distance with me,but im still okay..luckily i got a nice fucking understanding gurl in my life..in her, i put a lot of commitment which is i considered that i never done before..HER,is everything..she's give me hope to survive in this fucking city without a doubt..HER is my backbone...HER is my 'rusuk kiri'...everybody knows that..since rite now,i think i just want to pretend like a cool person to the ppl who being posseur with me..like i said,im lonely now..lonely with my luvly baby...starting a new life..new environment..thats cool..